i havent posted in 2 weeks- it feels like yesterday! I follow this other girls blog that i use to work with and she posts daily!! DAILY! how, when, where??? oh my! and she has 2 babies and a third on the way! she must type in the shower or something i have no idea! haha- as we speak i have a 3 month old who is waking from a nap and often i can talk him into about 3 more min. before he wakes again! and we are currently.....brb- crying baby ( see what i mean!) ok, paci in, blankie in place... well see how long he sleeps this time! so as i was saying- idk how this girl does it? and she posts pics with every post as well- its a mystery! It makes me feel as though shes perfectly organized and crafty ( yes she does crafts too) and i can barley find time to pick up and brush my teeth!
this brings me to my next point- i LOATHE the idea of retrning to work in 6 weeks.. i mean, just typing the number "6" makes my skin crawl..and for 2 reasons. 1) who doesnt want to be off work for over 4 months? and then its almost impossible to gear up to return! 2) who wants to leave their baby after spending that much time by their side? not me! and granted, my mom is my "daycare" so that makes things much easier, but i dont want to miss anything- and id rather stay home and be domestic and crafty and a mom. but i guess not everyone can have that luxury in life. I am the "insurance" winner in our family, meaning in a world of overpriced coverage, my job offers the better "deal"- so i cant quit working! bens job offers monthly insurance coverage that is comparable to a house note, and if i wanted that id go get a 2nd house! so for now, im stuck returning to work- and missing all this bonding time with my boy. but, i try to count my blessings bc..
1) i did get over 4 months off work, where most woman only stay home for 6 weeks ( this i cant imagine. your body isnt even prepared for that lead alone your mind)
2) a nursing job is considered full time at 30 hours. so for me to get insurance i only have to work 30 hours a week- and since we get paid every 2 weeks, this equates into a 36 hours week ( 3-12 hr days) and 24 hour week ( 2-12 hour days). So i only work 3 days one week and 2 days the next and am "full time". This is amazing and not a days go by that i remind myself how awesome this is. other mommies have to be away 5 whole days.
3) my mom will be with phoenix all the times that me or ben can not. and if anyone has to be with him- a grandparent is the next best thing! my mom can send me pics, videos, keep me posted, ill know hes not being neglected, ill know hes not crying his eyes out, or accidentally being fed someones elses milk, or laying a crib all day with no onteraction. I know my mom will make his brain grow and make him smile big. (but that doesnt erase the fact that i wish it were me! )
4) I knew if i kept him my belly in until at least aug 25th that that would mean id be home until at least dec 25- and he was born on aug 25! plus, the way the week fell, i dont have to return to work until after the new year- so i was blessed by getting every single holiday off with phoenix this first year, and for that i am grateful!
So, long story short, to explain why this girl i follow is able to do all these things- she is a stay at home mom. She never has to count down the days until she returns to work. which is awesome. ----> jealous.
In other news, phoenix is trying to sit up more and more each day! he is so strong, its incredible! he smiles more and more and when he wakes up in the morning he is FULL of talking and smiling- he loves waking up! he is still sleeping next to us in bed, we are working towards moving him but taking it slowly. i only get cuddle time with him this little once, so say what you wish! plus big ole' boy eats so much that it makes feeding him at night a breeze! Also new this week are 2 little white dots on his lower gums- hes teething! we'd seen the drool, the chewing of the hands, etc, but hadnt seen white bumps until now! i had several teeth fully exposed by 4 months and it is hereditary, so maybe hes taking after me... I say fatty just wants to eat big boy food in a hurry haha
love this pouty/ tired face:
bought "elf on the shelf" and hes already watching ;)
This has to be the most handsome man. im not bias.
prepping up for his 2nd holiday and 1st thanksgiving
perfect smiling face in the mornings!
mid-day couch time!