Monday, January 6, 2014

Motherhood

This week im reminded what motherhood really looks like, its:

-not brushing your teeth before greeting your baby in their crib each day. maybe not even brushing your teeth until bed...

-not wearing makeup at home because to even attempt it would just mean little hands grabbing and tugging at you the entire time only to end up trying to apply it one handed which we all know how successful that ends..

-finding your child the best, most delicious, healthy meal then realizing you never even considered what youd eat and once again sit meal-less but without an appetite because hey, youre actually sitting for a moment and relaxing while they eat..bliss

- wishing every store in existence had a drive through because, if you have the child who hates a buggy or a stroller because it "confines" them, you know what a headache it can be to just run in the post office for 2 stamps or into macys just to make a return. how much simpler would life be if macys and the post office had a drive through??? why do laundromats deserve a drive through? what makes them so fancy?

-feeling like you just went on an exotic vacation when you realize grocery shopping at 10pm when baby is in bed is "where its at" and "why hadnt I thought of this before?!"

-telling people, "sorry i have to cancel our plans" or "sorry we wont be able to make it" because nap time rules your world and only people with children understand this. Nap time is the be all end all of important times during the day. If you must leave the house, as a responsible mother, you must plan it around the golden hours. Nap time is key. in our house, we are available from 9-12 and 3:30- 7:30. if that doesnt work for you, im sorry. Ill catch later, you when my child is 7. 

-being extremely greedy with your time when the golden hour does strike. meaning i may not answer your call. or email you back. I may sit on the couch the entire time. or i may go on a mini vacation known as showering. This is my one vacation for the day. but even still i may end up making the bed, cleaning the house or doing dishes and feeling quite tired but quite accomplished after im done.

-feeling like you didnt do something perfect each and everyday; beating yourself up when you lay in bed each night because you didnt completely rule the world today. maybe tomorrow?

- not always having perfect nails, perfect hair, a perfect outfit or a perfect body. 

-not always answering your phone when loved ones call because you know it just isnt feasible at this second... or even within this hour. 

-not having time to clean your car out in months and months. stuff just keeps getting pushed aside and moved around to imitate organization.

-forgetting sometimes that you still have a husband and you should probably pay him some attention and have a conversation thats not entirely about the baby 

-see above but insert pet ( cat, dog, etc.)

-but its also being so happy with and accepting of all of the above because you have this little miracle to spend every day with, giggle with, sing with, read with, teach amazing things to, see the world at a slower pace with and know that one day itll all be over and youll have all the time in the world to do all of the above... and even then, it wont matter. all that matters is how wonderful of a mother you were and the memories you hold of these years that are going too fast. sometimes the rationale for me is, it would take more time away from my child for me to do some of these things listed. I dont want anything to take away my seconds with him. call me selfish ;)