Last night as a 4 yr old

P cried so hard before he fell asleep bc he didnt want to "lose" being 4. He said it was such a great year and he was so sad to not ever be that age again. Then curled up in my arm to sleep instead of Rocking bc he wanted me to "hold him on his last night of 4". Hes an old soul. He literally balled. Bc hell never get 4 back. Thats pretty big for him to understand. I am sad too bc 4 has been so magical and 5 is one year closer to being such a big grown boy who may not snuggle me or kiss me or tell me how much they love me and want to marry me ❤️. I love this boy with my whole body. Happy last day of 4 and happy birthday evesweet  baby. 

Ticks and foreign bodies, oh my!

This weekend we went to dede's house for jareds 5th bday. The kids swam in the kiddie pool and did slip n slide. That night we cane home to our beta fish which had died and we put him in the toilet for p to send off. P got so sad bc he loved the fish and when he cried he fell into my arms. He was naked and about to take a bath so as i loved on him i felt something near his left armpit on his back, i spun him around and saw a tiny baby tick. I knew it was new and he began to cry bc he was so scared. We got the tick off whole and taped it up and put it in a baggy to keep. They say keep them in case you ever need them to be tested for disease. He was so brave and we knew he mustve gotten it from dedes house out in the back yard. 

Then tonight, 3 days later, while in bed he  cried right bc he doesnt want to turn 5 and is so sad tomorrow is his last day as a  4 yr old. He cried bc "4 is the best age" , he said hes too sad to turn 5 bc its not as good as 4 and he doesnt want to get older. When you get older you have to clean and stuff. As he cried, he mentioned his right ear saying, "my ear feels weird like a tag is in my ear" (Like rustling)  so crying i think made him notice it felt odd in there. I had to use the otoscope and saw a pretty good sized seed from what i assume to be a tree or plant as far into his ear as possible! I had to use the otoscope and a water spray bottle as an impromptu ear flush kit! 

He was shaking crying when i confirmed he had something in there. 

He said "i am not pwepared for this" but He was sooooo brave!!!! Laid and did everything i asked him to do! I said im so proud of u for telling me your ear felt weird. 

It was a hard seed and im sure rubbing the drum. It was as far in as anything could go

I was nervous at first that i wouldnt get it

But the good news is NOTHING can get past youe ear. Its a dead end

But it was a round heavy seed thank God so it flushed out after about 4 attempts. 

He cried so hard praying it wasnt a centipede - Thanks a lot uncle mikey for showing p a video of centipedes coming our of ears! 

Poor thing will be exhaustrd tomorrow bc we didnt lay down until 11 due to the ear ordeal!

Afterwards he He said," well i guess lets go put it in a baggy by the tick" 😂

Then said ,  "im not going to dedes again" hahahaha. Hes goinf out of 4 with a bang!!! Heres to the last day tomorrow of my baby being 4 yrs old. And what a fun yr 4 has been (despite lip stitches, ticks, seeds in the ear and himfinding out hes getting a brother not a sister as he said he wanted!) 

Ps first prepared meal

P cut the peppers alone and then seasoned them with dill and water and baked them in the toaster oven! Then we both tasted each of the delicious peppers! So proud of my little chef!!!

Another first, visiting someones house

After playing in our yards all night, Cove invited p over for a tv show at 9pm and p wanted me to go. I said im going in and u have to make this big decision. He was hesitent and tearful so i said lets go in. Youll see them tomorrow and ur tired. He went back and forth and then said i do wanna go i can do it. So he had me walk him to their door , He smothered me in kisses and hugs and put them in his heart and said bye mommy i love u
And in he went. It was the forst time hes ever left me to be in someones house other than gmas. So bittersweet for me. He stayed an hour and returned home happy and without tears, he was so pepud of himself, as was i, but i smothered him in hugs and kisses as if hedbeen  gone a lifetime. Its hard letting go of your heart. 

Great grandpa gyant

While the Gyants are in town visiting, mom said Pop told her that Phoenix is anointed,.he will be a leader someday.he said I feel the holy spirit in him so strong he makes him shiver. 

Well we've always agreed he was born a leader and not a follower, and pop said " and a little child will lead them"  (scripture )

Mom texted me to tell me that

Pop said "when im.dead and gone and he's grown up you remember the old grey haired man spoke of this child's greatness to come"

Pretty much gives ya chills right? We all know p is special, from his early speech and verbal skills, to early mobility and walking, to his inate sense of knowledge and intuition. At 4 hes well beyond his years and seems light years ahead of most kids, esp. spiritually and mentally, not just book smarts but inution and the ability to pick up on subtle cues and body language. Its just amazing to see someone who notices it as well, esp someone who doesnt see him except maybe twice a year. I too am excited to see what my baby boy does in this life.